Today, I took ~200 mg of Pregabalin and then, I took a large dose of orange DMT.

Traveling through different dimensions⌗

In this trip, I saw people. I clipped into another dimension. I had many physical feelings that made me feel like I was moving through different geometric planes.

Seducing the beings⌗

Once I break through enough planes, I think that I went to a city with beings

I remember that I exchanged with them, but I don’t know what. I remember that I can win them over thanks to seduction, the same way I seduce entities in this world.

Furthermore, I know they like me, the same way that people around me like me. It’s like a foundation, and I have to build upon it. By befriending these people, I can gain mental strength.

Demons that control my brains⌗

After living for a bit in this other dimension, I progressively fell back into our reality. When closing my eyes, I could see scenes. It was infested of evil, infected, organic mass. I saw a dark entity.

I sense that these hideous things might be important parts of my true nature, but that I’m refusing it. These are demons that live in my head. I don’t want to kill them. I want to befriend them. After all, they are part of me. They give me strength when I do what they want (hurt people, destroy things). When I get astray from my destiny, I feel down.

So, what is happening? Why did I feel depressed today? Maybe, I should destroy things. Hack the system, the human system.

I know what to do to please the demon. Another silly project. It’s not the best thing I can do, but I have nothing else. I’ll let this project feed the demons to gain mental strength.

3D Music⌗

I was listening to Hip-Hop music (Nepal). At some point, a song took life and created a universe in my head that I could explore. It developed into complex structures.

Seeking catharsis⌗

When I was travelling back to humanity, I wanted to cry. What the heck just happened. There is another dimension that feels real, and in this dimension, people like me. My personal Isekai. I wanted to cry to reconcile the sides in my head, the good, and the bad. But I couldn’t; I never cry because it’s dangerous. There are evident benefits to crying, but I can’t do it because people will become desperate. I did not achieve catharsis, but I will train attaining it.

Reality shift⌗

When I got back, I was reincarnated with a higher sense of self. I feel a bit more like a human, and a bit less like some consciousness operating a human.

I want to train myself to be able to feel like the human most of the time.

Chemistry thing⌗

Pregabalin helped me make my brain more relaxed. The defenses were looser, so I could go deeper into the trip.

The problem with Pregabalin is that it gets addictive fast.

Next steps⌗

  • work on my silly project to feed the demons
  • continue mastering the DMT world
  • become friends with the DMT entities.