Hello there,

I don’t have so much ideas lately, so I’m going to focus on my domain-specific blog for a while to build street cred.

I’d like to keep this blog as a public-but-anonymous journal on my way to 1B$. I’ll keep it as a secret to show to people for which I don’t mind if they know what I’m really up to.

So I’ll speak about this kind of stuff exclusively, until I finally decide to get a blog tied to my name too.

State of affairs⌗

Current state of affairs:

  • business A is still bringing mostly 0 revenue
  • business B that I’m starting should bring 10k$/month, enough to finance some travelling
  • my day job is making me 2k$-4k$. It has gotten more interesting lately and I’m less troubled with putting in the hours.

Predicated state of affairs:

  • business A brought me 5k$
  • business B is slowly scaling up, maybe to 2k$/month
  • I’m consistent with my day-job at 40 hours/month

Mood⌗

I feel OK.

Not really euphoric. I currently need a lot of sleep.

I’ve received Cerebrolysin (stuff from pig brain that you inject into yourself) but I’m delaying usage since I want to give 4’-DMA-7,8-DHF a good try (it’s really good but it might be impacting my sleep - and also there are no human trials)

Next month, I’d like to have greater sleep. I don’t think that I will have tried Cerebrolysin yet since I cannot afford the 1 week of downtime I’ll get from it (it causes brain fog and belly problems for around a week before it gets better and you feel the effects)

I’m super scared of the needles, lol. (nervous “lol”)

Relationships⌗

I’m pretty much a hermit right now, but I’m appreciating it. I prefer to use my time wisely. It’s not that I don’t need friends, but more that I already find great enjoyment in what I do.

I am pretty socially inept, and it’s exhausting to always try so hard. I’ve learned about the concept of “masking”, which is actively trying to emulate socially acceptable behaviors and takes great effort. Apparently, most people are how they are in society without modifying their behavior; which is the contrary for me; I really have to try super hard to not weird out people (and I end up anyway).

So yeah. Pretty dead. I realize that I don’t really like spending time with other humans as much because of this. I’ve thought multiple times about throwing all my relationships under a bus (which I was doing anyway by not answering messages and not reaching out)

It’s not worth it!!! Is it me, or is it them? Am I spending time with the wrong people, or is humanity the problem? Or am I the problem? I wish to find someone with whom I could spend all days without being tired.